Wednesday, July 7, 2010

You Are the Music in Me

I have always been very involved in music in one way or another. I sang in church from the time I learned to use my vocal chords, up until the time adolescence caused my social anxiety and shyness to kick in. In middle school I joined the band, playing trumpet, and was in chorus there as well. In high school, I dropped chorus, but continued on in band. In college, I re-joined a choral ensemble, continued playing trumpet, and (very briefly) took guitar and piano lessons as well. Music is very therapeutic. While some people exercise, join sports, or engage in some other aggressive activity to release anger and anxiety, I pull up whatever mood-appropriate music(be it scream, hard rock, pop, whatever) I can find in my CD player or on my iPod, and listen to it, and if I'm alone maybe even sing along. I may still be angry or depressed or whatever afterwards, but the feeling is definitely less severe. I used to want to be a professional musician - some days when I'm frustrated at the goings-on at the mental health facility where I work, I mentally threaten to quit, drop out of school, start a band, and just become a wandering, starving artist.

Interestingly enough, I have gotten back into some Christian music. I just can't see myself getting back into most of the repetitive Praise and Worship, cult-like stuff that is on the radio a lot of times these days, but some other songs that either I can relate to personally or are worded as such that my mind makes kind of a "Gnostic" interpretation rather than a "fundamentalist, evangelistic bullshit" interpretation.

I will close with the video and lyrics of a song I heard recently, that has caught my interest and been stuck in my head for a few days. To me, it talks about knowing what you believe. When it talks about being at war with the world, for me "the world" represents the materialistic; the mundane, day-to-day bullshit that we have to deal with, that threatens to overpower me and cause me to lose focus and lose my way. The song is "Awake and Alive" by Skillet.

"I'm at war with the world and they
Try to pull me into the dark
I struggle to find my faith
As I'm slippin' from your arms

It's getting harder to stay awake
And my strength is fading fast
You breathe into me at last

I'm awake I'm alive
Now I know what I believe inside
Now it's my time
I'll do what I want 'cause this is my life
here, right now
I'll stand my ground and never back down
I know what I believe inside
I'm awake and I'm alive

I'm at war with the world cause I
Ain't never gonna sell my soul
I've already made up my mind
No matter what I can't be bought or sold

When my faith is getting weak
And I feel like giving in
You breathe into me again

Waking up waking up
In the dark
I can feel you in my sleep
In your arms I feel you breathe into me
Forever hold this heart that I will give to you
Forever I will live for you"




3 comments:

Angel said...

Oh man, that is SWEET!!! Thanks for sharing your latest find. That's going on my playlist. Playing drums and singing at the same time is a special talent. Geez. Amazing vocals.

Music is definitely soothing for the soul, even if it's about the very emotion we're feeling at the moment. But it can also inspire.

Yeah, iPods are heavenly. I've got two boys and lemme tell ya- when they get in their moods and just refuse to be dealt with I put on my headset and sing at them. That usually starts a dance-fest and then they recover their brains and start acting like human beings again. I'm not opposed to embarrassing myself(I can't hold a tune to save my life) if it means getting a laugh out of someone. Stunning them into good behavior, I calling it. Shock therapy, man! lol

I tend to blare Natasha Bedingfield, Stone Temple Pilots(the old stuff), and some newer artists when I'm in a funk. Oldies include Lennon and Jim Morrison.

N. Bedingfield's "Unwritten" vid is awesome. I have it on my blog as an earlier update last month. Gnostic to a T. LIVE! FEEL! Get out and boogie! But with your eyes open. That song makes me wanna D.A.N.C.E.!!

Pocketful of Sunshine is bit more on the dark side of the gnostic realm of thought.

Chadly said...

I love it! Part of what hooked me right from the start, was the incorporation of classical instruments(the violin) in conjunction with the modern. I love songs that makes use of such a wide range.

I wish I could pop in music like that to help with the kids at work. It would certainly make things easier. Would also give me something to do after the kids finally go to sleep.

Angel said...

Music therapy. Art therapy. Animal therapy.

It's all good. Eclectic mixes are good for the soul. Rock Opera with Bagpipes. I'm waiting for it. It'll eventually happen.